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Insecurity has got to be one of the worst things. explain to a random admissions officer why they should want me to go to their school, i have nothing to say. even worse i have to write this statement of purpose and i have nothing to put in it.

i want to come live here with my mom but she's being so mysterious and secretive. she lies and i know this because she wont look at my face when she's talking sometimes. i think she has hidden agendas. she won't tell me anything yet she tells eveyrone else evrything all day. sketchyyyskecthy i dont like this..

i don't feel like myself today. i don't ever know what i'm doing but i always know how to act. i can write an endless book about the contradictions that go through my mind. how can someone like you but then tell someone else that i was the one that misunderstood and we're just friends? how can i let myself trust someone with my emotions so easily. i don't ever know what i'm doing. the few people that i can be uninhibited around are the ones that hurt me the most. i hate this. i am so sad

Don't leave i do need you i want nothing to do with you. Nothing ever holds. You grow up knowing things will change but you don't anticipate this.

wish i was $$$$$$$$

fuck this lYFE for real. I want parties and fun but they never are. I want oppurtunities to do bigger things. I want change but i don't know what. give me something to look forward to.

today i was in the plaza next to boca high and school was just getting out...i must say i really miss highschool. always being ina big group of friends and lunch with all your friends and seeing eachother everyday. all different groups of people in different hangout spots. it will never be like tha again. in college you go to class and u leave. you meet up with one or two people for lunch every few days but you dont see them everyday and you're hardly ever ina group anymore except maybe at parties. i liked the mix of boys and girls and how depending on the time of day you always knew where all youre friends would be- every morning before the bell was the locker room, lunch was at the tables outside, and if you happen to skip into the other lunch you saw a whole nother group of friends. college is so lonesome sometimes

so so overwhelmed with work i am finding any excuse to procrastinate. i have a paper due thursday and ive had no time to start it and ive been wokring my ass off these past two weeks. i want sooooo many tats im excited to get them

bezt classez awesome everything

im lonely

OoOoooOooooOuchhhh something is seriosuly wrong with m body. my per.always comes late and the symptoms seriously kiLL. my schedule is awesme: i go to class only 3 days a week, monday at 7 pm, tuesday 2-5 pm, and thursday 2-10pm. orientation was lamd i escaped early both days, i know its mandatory but they can suck my d.......thats it for now

I don't know what im doing anymore and its the worst feeling. How are you supposed to know when something is right for you? it feels right but is there something more right for me out there? what if i let go and i was wrong and this was the right thing the whole time. and then i have to start all over.

I guess the only thing is to keep doing what im doing as long as its making me happy for now and to not anticipate the future so much. it's easy to say but not so easy to do. I can never take my own advice and this seems to be a recurring problem in my life.

last week of summer so happy. i really dont know what im going to do when everyone leaves this week but i cant wait to meet all new people at fau. only downside is fau doesnt have the major i want so who knows how long ill be here unless i pick one of their majors. the only school with my major is fsu (i do not want to go there). so scary not knowing where the next few years are going to take me. i feel so contradictory lately i want to go out and go to parties and i want to drink. and at the same time i want to stay home and do nothing or hang out wiht one person and watch a movie. i really want my sewing machine to be fixed so i can do more of that then i wouldnt even want to go out and i wouldnt feel anxious about staying home.

i am far from love but i couldn't be happier with everything right now. fau in three weeks. momma coming home from turkey in two. 'i have nothing to say really' 'you dont have to say anything baby'.......everythings perfect.bye

Everything about me is depression and anxiety these days. my heart feels so heavy all the time. im happy to have christian granny<3 stephanie and a few others. i am optimistic about this upcoming schoolyear.pink eye. cereal. sex and the city..my life as of now

I don't even know.

r.i.p. abe charnak

i think official goodbyes are better than see-you-laters because you know what youre getting yourself into and its not on your mind and not in your dreams. thats it.

i have a.i.m. now for school and stuff
soo..give me your screenames puhleeease

i loveloveLOVE modest mouse. hate being stubborn. miss grant

i found a baby ______ .
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